Life with Three

Life with three is interesting to say the least. A lot of things have been happening since we have taken Baby Cavan home. Lets start with Maeve. Maeve has regressed a lot. She has become very weepy and whiney and has resorted to crying again when we drop her off at school. She asks me to carry her or rock her when she is feeling sad. She uses baby talk now when trying to tell us something. It is exasperating! I try to ignore a lot of it because I know that she is craving attention. When she is not behaving this way, I will give her extra hugs and kisses to let her know that I still love her. The tantrums are killing me but I know that she is just trying to make sense of all of the changes. With Cavan, Maeve is wonderful!! She is my little helper. She loves on him and cares for him... the maternal instinct in her really came out in the past few weeks and it warms my heart! She really protects him from Cara (which is not always a good thing). I couldn't have asked her to love him anymore!
Now onto Cara. Man has she it the terrible twos in all of its glory! We have tantrums that consist of screaming, throwing herself onto the floor or just covering her face with her hands like something horrible has happened. It is kind of humorous to watch but Kenyon and I have to remind ourselves that she is not a baby anymore. To time out she goes. And she hates it! But let me tell you- it is working and the mention of it keeps her somewhat quiet. She is really really good with Cavan. She understands that he is smaller and is okay with me breastfeeding and loving on him. I thought she would be very jealous. But she isn't. I constantly hear, "oh no, where's baby?" Or.. "hi Cabin." She is worried about him a lot and has accepted him as part of our family.
Cavan has been challenging the past week or so. His gas is getting the bettr of him and we have been up from 2-5 on most nights. It is exhausting. But I wouldn't trade it for the world! He is pretty chill and is okay with the girls screaming around him. He is my little love.... Seeing Kenyon with him now is pretty cool. Many times they hang out on the couch watching sports and Kenyon tells him all about it. It was a rocky start with Kenyon and Cavan. I think Kenyon got used to taking care of the girls while I was in the hospital that it took a while to bond with Cavan. But now they are buddies!
Now as a whole. It is insane. I am not going to lie. Sometimes I wonder how I am getting through it. In the moment it doesn't seem to bad but then when I look at each minute- I am like, this is nuts. For example. I took all three kids outside to play. Cavn did not want to be in the bucket so I was holding him. Cara took off on me down the street so I threw Cavan in the stroller and ran after him. Maeve, who was trying to help ran after her and fell splat on her face. So I had one screaming in the stroller, one screaming face down and bloody on the ground and one still running away on me. Looking back on it, I can laugh but at the time I was going to cry. Life is all about moments and for the most part, my moments are filled with love, laughter and happiness. Now, there are moments that I would like to forget about- but all in all, we are managing and life is pretty damn good right now!